You know what, I really try hard not to think about masturbating too much. I had a moment there where I really did, I could not get out of bed one day because I was just, it was a constant thing. That was an exhausting day. It was like, I didn't even want to eat food because that was my food for the day. It was exhausting and it was scary because it consumed my entire day and I try very hard not to have any triggers around me where I would feel like I need to masturbate today.

On how this could happen to “someone so strong”:

“I am strong. This happened to me. I didn’t cause this. I didn’t do it. This happened to me and it could happen to anybody. There are a lot of women who have experienced what I did, but not in the public. So it just made it really difficult. I just felt like, ‘Oh my god, here goes my little bit of privacy, just exposed.’ It’s something that nobody wants anybody to know. So here I am with the whole world knowing.”

On why she’s ashamed:

“I didn’t want people to think that that’s the kind of person — I fell in love with that person. That’s embarrassing. That’s embarrassing that that’s the type of person that I fell in love with. So far in love. So unconditional that I went back.”

On going back to Chris Brown

“I don’t want that to happen. That’s not what I want to teach people. But again, people — I’m a human being and people put me on a very unrealistic pedestal. All these expectations. I’m not perfect. Also, it’s natural for that to be the first reaction. It’s completely normal to go back. You start lying to yourself. The minute the physical wounds go away, you want this thing to go away. This a memory you don’t want to have again.”